Selfish bitch

Today, for the first time, it hit me. I realized that my sis' is really getting married. Sure, I've known it will happen someday but today it became real. BANG. My dearest sister...Marrying?

Lately I've been forced to think a lot about these "getting married" things as a lot of my friends have tied the knot. And maybe, maybe getting married is natural in the end. People warned me about it and that's the way it goes, friends around you to be someone else's. But my own sister...My dearest, the one who I've fought and argued with...but we've lived together for years sharing everything we've seen, done, experienced.

The best thing is at some point I realized I have a sister who is not an usual one but the best sister in the world. I'm lucky and I want to thank mum and daddy, for having a sister with who I've been able to share my whole world. A sister who is an example in showing love, living with a feeling in the moment, goodness, and is very emphatic. And now, someone else has realized it as well and is going to take the treasure to be his own. Just like that! How can that be possible? Suddenly there's a man in your life and nothing is like it used to be! I don't understand. What about OUR dreams? Are you leaving it all behind just like that?

The most difficult thing is giving up, I suppose. Yes, I know, life's not ending but a new one is beginning. Selfishness it is but the thing that hurts most is that I'll not be playing the main role in your life anymore. Life's such a drama... and I sound like an old bitter spinster. Absolutely fabulous.